366 Days of Building Creativity Week 42 in Review: October 14th-20th
Where do you allow yourself to be creative?
I realized this week that I had certain places I allowed creativity and then in some areas, I was still relying on my the old constructs of perfectionism I had constructed to try and keep me safe from criticism.
Public speaking was one of those areas.
I had the opportunity to be a part of a wonderful marriage event for couples. I was also the last presenter of three, and I got to watch two magnificent public speakers go before me.
They had no notes. They were engaged and funny and vulnerable. They were powerful.
I have to admit, it took everything I had to stay out of comparison, and even then I was only moderately successful.
I got up there and I had my notes I referred to and I gave my gift of giving the couples an activity to help them communicate better.
But afterwards I kept thinking about the experience, and I realized, I wanted my part to be perfect. That's why I had the notes. Because I had come up with sentences and examples and I wanted those exact things to be said.
What I've learned through this daily experiment in building creativity, is that there will always be something there for me. I trust it now. I trust myself now. I'm often amazed at what is created because I had no idea.
I have released control in that area and I am trusting myself and the process.
And that surrender is making it abundantly clear the areas that I haven't done that and that I don't quite trust it will be or I will be enough.
It's one thing to prepare and practice, but it's another thing to perfect.
Next time I speak, I want to trust myself and be more in the moment with the people to whom I am speaking. I want to be open to the experience and not worry if I forget something or don't say something quite right. I want to let go and let God.
I want to be open to the creative process in all areas of my life and allow space for whatever God may have in store for me.
"No attachments. And no expectations for how you want it to turn out. The second we begin to attach a 'perfect' plan to our paintings, is the second our creative spirit is no longer free to play with abandon."
-Kelly Rae Roberts
"The art-making process can be mysterious but it can also be somewhat controlled. You can set a wakeup call for the muse if you give yourself a predictable program, an armature to build your work on."
"Instead of trying to reproduce exactly what I see before me, I make an arbitrary use of color to express myself more forcefully."
-Vincent Van Gogh
"I Heard: 'INCREASE, INCREASE, INCREASE' 'It's time to give new things a go!' Deep healing, deliverance and freedom was coming upon the people of God as they moved in His creative flow! I felt the Lord say, 'I am taking back the mountain of arts and media.' The world is going to begin to see FROM THE PEOPLE OF GOD a NEW and FRESH level of creativity. There is a CREATIVE EXPLOSION upon the Body of Christ RIGHT NOW!"
"And suddenly you know: It's time to start something new and trust the MAGIC of beginnings."
"My choice of colors does not rest on any scientific theory, it is based on observation, on feeling, on the experience of my sensibility."
"Take time to notice the things that other people are overlooking."