 When I made this collage card, I had no idea why I chose the images I did, I just knew they were speaking to my soul.
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 I was at my 2nd Brick Fiesta, a LEGO fan convention with a public exhibition, and this story almost didn't happen because I thought it was already too late to enter the Master Builder Contest Game because I had missed Heat 1. My husband then kindly explained to me about preliminary rounds vs. final rounds, and thus our story begins.
 As part of my 366 Days of Building Creativity Experiment in 2016, I held an art exhibit of the final 30 days of creations (you can see pictures from it here if you are interested).
“You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers. Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting – over and over announcing your place in the family of things.” -Mary Oliver From the movie Yes Man:
Allison: I know our music isn't that mainstream, but I love doing it It's like my photography. I know there isn't much demand for blurry photos taken while running, but ... Carl Allen: I wasn't going to say anything. Allison: You know, who cares? The world is a playground. You know that when you're a kid, but somewhere along the way everyone forgets it. Carl Allen: I love your music. Everyone can take a photo standing still.  Well, I guess I have to use my intuition and trusting faith to re-write about this card as, for someone reason, it disappeared from my word document.
 I made this card to help me with struggle.
Brené says we are wired for strength and for struggle.  In SoulCollage®, a technique used to help you with insights about your card, is to journal or speak from the card using the prompt “I am one who…”
I thought what better way to express authenticity than to let you read my personal journaling from that prompt for this card, which I call The Perfectionist: “When you gather images from magazines and other sources, when you cut them out, paste them onto cards, and then consult them, it is the same sort of miracle. You are gathering your various inner parts, conscious and less conscious, lovable and irritating, beautiful and shadowy, and then you ‘sing’ over them so they can transform into a freer and more vibrant soul.” On May 1, 2016, the day before the deadline to enter, I submitted an application for the city of Pearland's Pear-Scape, a public art sculpture trail project. If you've seen the pelicans in Seabrook or any of the cow parade cows, that's what this is. Giant fiberglass pears (4 feet high and 38 inches wide) that would be sponsored, painted by different artists, and then installed around the city of Pearland. I was supposed to know by the end of May 2016 if any of my proposed pear designs had been selected, and then I was to have from the beginning of June to mid-August to paint my pear. My three proposed pear designs  Well, I was never chosen.
 "But then someone starts talking about your soul - maybe at church, maybe in a book. Someone starts talking about things like grace and rest and peace, and the soul feeling its worth, and that language feels so foreign and so beautiful, like water in a desert, like one bright bud pushing up in an otherwise arid landscape. And like a song you used to love but haven't heard for years, something breaks through: that's what I've been missing. That's it. My soul." -Shauna Niequist
This year was about my soul healing and playing and leading, and that totally surprised me.  Inspiration came in so many forms this year. Honestly because I'm interested in so many things, I had times of a little too much inspiration to the point of feeling overwhelmed. I have to keep remembering to keep my input strength in check and keep an eye on perfectionism. Here's some things that inspired my in 2016:
 Failure is a part of daring greatly. And don't get me wrong failure sucks, but it actually does get easier. You learn to not take it personally, you learn how to Rise Strong and recognize where you might have shame that needs an antidote.
Here are some of my failures in 2016 and what I learned:  Being your own boss means you get to say yes to whatever your heart desires.
So in addition to providing psychotherapy, I got to be creative with my business and have workshops and events as well to help people discover, play, grow, and love themselves more.  As a psychotherapist I always said I never wanted to have a private practice, it felt like too much responsibility to me. I knew where I was wasn’t working for me though, and I took a leap. And with a lot of help and support, I founded my own business, Daring Discoveries, PLLC. But first it was Daring Discoveries, LLC until I realized I couldn’t do that legally since I am a licensed professional (thus the P stands for Professional), that wasn’t a scary moment or anything. But that’s why we are not alone and have friends and a dear colleague Leah McCoy directed me to a resource who was able to walk me through the paperwork to change my legal status so I didn’t have to scrap my business before I even started.
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